while I was playing with Lotus I was watching her and seeing how much she has changed since we have been home. I started thinking about the way she smiles and makes funny faces, the way she walks and jumps on you, the way she wakes up in the morning with a smile and gets so excited to see you open the door and pick her up, the way she lays her head on your shoulder as you rock her to sleep, the way she jumps in your arms when the dog barks too loud, the way she belly laughs when you tickle her....... I think about how fortunate I am to have a daughter like Lotus.........I begun to think about how her birth mother will not get to see these things and watch the little girl she gave birth to grow.......and I will always wonder about her decision to let her little girl go. As I watch Lotus grow I will always think about her birth mother.....a complete stranger, who gave me the greatest gift ever. I am truly blessed.